5 seconds of horror for discovering that my bus leaves 45 minutes earlier than expected ---- check
15 minutes of desperate packing measures ----- check
10 hours bus ride ----- check
3 hours of classes effectively skipped ---- check
..and here I am, back in Penang^^
I took it upon myself to take a read through some blogs yesterday and realised that : they are at it again - Ben and Jason on happiness. True, they involve rather old posts, and most probably I would've just missed them had it not been for xtine's mention of it on one of her blog posts. But then again, that in turn is a rather old post too, and arguing along the same lines, I would've missed THAT too.. =S *speechless**grabs a readily-available pineapple tart(that's what I love about home~)*
Basically, with my lack of enlightenment in the art of putting across arguments(and not to mention my phobia of large large chunks of words) I gather that Jason is advocating breaking free from the socially imposed constructs which most human beings have taken to be yardsticks to self-worth and identity; Ben on the other hand contends that things are easier said than done. You might also want to checkout xtine's post on this too, where she brought in issues about religion, Maslow's cliched, but still insightful needs hierarchy and her GP tutor.
Don't look at me. It's the 2nd day of Chinese New Year and I'm not about to make blocks out of characters on my laptop. On the contrary, despite me enjoying the flurry of thoughts inspired by post of such nature, at the end of the day, when the reasoning cease and the arguments from both sides drain from this tired boy's mind, what is left is usually always the feeling of preturbance(insecurity if you'll have it).
Perhaps my mind is not meant for great things(thoughts). Like Paint vs. Photoshop or like Gameboy vs. Gameboy Colour or 80486 vs P4 .. =S *speechless count : 2**grabs 2nd pineapple tart~* But I AM disturbed. Disturbed when I'm told that everything in life, in this case, self-worth and identity, from which stems happiness, has to have a reason attached to it.
Sometimes, I really like to think that things we do are just.. well, things we do. Let's keep it at that and not slap labels and reasoning onto them I say. Take that plate of sinful, no doubt cancer-causing and artery clogging, Char Kuey Tiow for instance. Taking a plate of that yesterday just killed reason and instinct(assuming the reason is survival of the fittest and instinct is self-preservation). And yet I am happy doing so without thinking about why I need to have that plate of noodles in the 1st place. I would probably flip if someone came up to me and tried to convince me whether or not in some profound way that eating Char Kuey Tiow is in fact a measure of self-worth and identity imposed by society on Penangites ;)
I came home last Friday to welcome a new member in my family -- a cute lil' puppy dog. It's only a month old and can barely stand(nothing needs to be said about it's 'sanitary' habits ;) ). We have to take turns feeding it milk through a syringe every few hours and when he starts yelping in hunger in the middle of the night. And it greatly disturbs me that the happiness that I derive from having to wake up at ungodly hours to syringe-feed it(and not to mention have it pee on my legs) has to have some reason attached to it. God forbid the day when the motivation behind feelings like LOVE and AFFECTION. Thank you, but emotions to me, can and should only be just an inherent part of ourselves, and I intend to keep them that way.
Building on these two examples, this is perhaps why I am indifferent over the arguments floored by both gentlemen in their blogs -- It is a debate that I rather not have/feel that I don't need to have in my life. Motivation - me, myself and I; My life, my will, my principles, my destiny.
Speaking of which, lil' yet-to-be-named-puppy-dog just shitted on the floor again.. better clean it up before mum sees it =P bah.. these blocks of word are starting to intimidate me anyway.
Happy Chinese New Year everyone! I'll post a photo of our puppy later. And for those that are taking maths term test on Monday, enjoy solving your surface integrals and differential equations governing your flow of angpau money ;) firecrackersboomboomboom^^
